Good to be back writing again. How time flies so fast. I have this thing where I stop writing every time I go through an emotional upheaval of some kind. It's a terrible habit actually because I have been wishing for a special circle in hell reserved for people who take perfectly good web addresses and never use them. And duh, congestion.
To say that I haven't been adjusting as well as I like is a bit of an understatement. I think I've been depressed. Self-diagnosed, of course so it's very likely that I'm making mountains out of molehills, but at the same time there's no denying the almost-weekly crying jags, and the overwhelming feelings of inadequacy and worthlessness. It sounds trite, but I don't think anybody really understands how completely lost I felt.
I wouldn't want anybody to. It's a horrible way to feel.
Twitter has pretty much destroyed me for stuff that goes beyond 140 characters so if I were to be totally and completely honest, the main idea of blogging again is for me to get back into the writing groove. I study communication arts, after all.
Writing again after a long time of not being able to do so has always been something more to me than just the result of filling up an old one journal. It's such a hopeful gesture because it's more than just turning to a fresh page - it's having the courage to get a fresh start and let go of feelings and memories that keep you from moving on to what should be a new and exciting period of your life.
My name is Isay.
This is my fresh start.
Hahahaha
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